I’m home and I’m lost In my head. I can’t sleep with out this. Underlying tension seeks its level, right dad?

Ive experienced more in the past three weeks then mentally I ever could have. I miss my best friend, the person I know won’t leave me after everything, every drug use, sex with sex, fight, self destructive behavior, hate, lustful action.
I love you gabi.
I’m just a creature of habit, you know this, we should all know.
I miss you too ave, but you left, you blindly left. Did you not know how badly I loved you? I wanted to be sisters I wanted to be close…. You chose her over me, you chose them, I’m ok with that. The people I loved have shown me who they are and who they favor.
You know I’d still give you whatever I could, but I don’t deserve that. I’m sorry I wasn’t good enough Jon.
I wish you were in Wilmington Avery white. I’m sorry I hurt you whoever I have.
But im getting better. My past experiences from growing haunt me. But I’m fine. I’m doing fine.

Glow in the dark stars, always. Summer here we go.